Stormy Weather

That was quite a storm!  100 mph winds, rain pouring so hard it hurt, vivid lightening and deafening thunder. Did you see it too?   Probably not…Because it all just occurred in my mind. The storm that brewed from a flood of thoughts – my brain taking me to all the shoulds…didn’ts…failures…doubts…fears.  Reminding me that […]

I Am Responsible TO Others, Not FOR Them

Once upon a time, I went to counseling, for a year. The reason was that I had lost my empathy somewhere along the way in medical training. It was my husband who suggested I get help, because the numbness could no longer be turned ‘on’ and ‘off’ for my work and I remained frozen and […]

12 Book Recommendations for Women Doctors

With the temperature dropping, now is the perfect time to curl up under the covers or next to a cozy fireplace and read a good book. If you are women in a white coat and are looking for a good read or are looking for a great gift for a woman doctor, check out these […]

Caring for Patients while Grieving my Fiance

As a psychiatrist, I sit with patients in all stages of their grief.  My patients have grieved the death of a loved one, trauma, loss of functioning or income due to an illness, loss of relationships, loss of a job, withdrawal from college, etc. No two people grieve the same.  You can find the Kubler-Ross […]

The “In-Between” Stage of My Journey

The “in-between” has never something I’ve embraced. It has been nearly a year since I last treated a patient, and I find myself still in a state of being “in-between”. At the risk of sounding reductive about the complex interpersonal dynamics within the practice where I was recently employed, I would sum it up as […]

Doc McStuffins and Diversity in Medicine

When I was a young girl I loved reading Berenstein Bear books with my parents before bedtime. The beautiful illustrations, the stories, always entertained me. I imagined that sister bear was one of my friends; she reminded me of any of the young girls that were in elementary school with me at that time. What […]

Baby Code Blue: I am Yours, Forever

There you are in your father’s arms. He is practically running to keep up with the triage nurse. The nurse is walking quickly toward the room that we leave open for true emergencies and the sickest patients. Your father’s eyes are full of fear, and the nurse’s tone is worrisome. I look down at you […]

When the Doctor Becomes the Breast Cancer Patient

Prior to my breast cancer diagnosis, when I thought about the doctor-patient relationship I only considered it in the context of my interactions with my own patients. Beyond that, I never really considered myself to be a “patient” or the co-existence of the two titles in my life. I saw my own doctors for annual […]

Leaving Toxicity Behind to Achieve Greatness

One thing I’ve learned while exploring adulthood is that not everyone is meant to be in your life. Many people that I called “friends” have come and gone in my life and sometimes it hurts when they leave but later down the line I realize it was for the better. I never realized this more […]

The Power in Losing: “I Don’t Cheat to Win, I Rather Lose”

Almost a month ago, I remember waking up to dozens of social media posts discussing Serena Williams’ US open loss. Her words, “I don’t cheat to win, I rather lose” were posted on numerous pages. Some people were praising Serena while others were in disbelief that something like this could happen to our queen of […]